Linggo, Mayo 29, 2016

Biyernes, Mayo 6, 2016

I don't want to be bitter!


For the past few days, bitterness took over me. I felt uneasy. I was prideful and at some point, I wish someone misfortune. I asked God for forgiveness because my heart was bitter. It consumed me. I realized how much bitterness can affect our characters, the way of thinking and even pass it to other people.

One night, Joshua and I went home together after work. We discussed politics, taxes and election in our country. I was enraged and Joshua saw me angry at him. My tone was getting high and I kept on fighting for what I know is right. (Like, who wants to get defeated over an argument, diba? Everybody wants to win an argument, but it doesn't always mean that you win the person. You can win and at the same time, lose it.)

So, Joshua rebuked me and said that I was speaking word enraged with anger and frustration, I lost my identity and who am I representing. It seems like, Jesus is not present in my life. I want to be justified that moment, I was only expressing my thoughts and this has nothing to do with Jesus. EHHHHHH!! BIG NO! I remember what 2 Cor 10:5 says:
"We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."
 I realized that every thought, words, and actions have something to do with Jesus. Everything from above to here below has something to do with Jesus. So yeah, I'm wrong. Joshua asked me if this is what I want to pass for the next generation leaders? Big no. And I began asking myself, why am I bitter towards the government and the system and life itself? Knowing the fact that this world is broken and fallen. Everyone needs a savior. We are in a corrupted society. We are broken people. We are all messy. We are sinners. Amidst of all issues about politics, work, ministry, relationships, school... LIFE, it is crucial that we put Jesus in everything because without Him, everything will be in vain. Start becoming a better version of you. As for me, I don't want to be bitter because I want to be better. Shalom!